Hi everyone! I know it has been a while, again…but a lot has happened! Nothing serious, but I guess you can say I have a bit more of a social life now. I think the last post mentioned D a friend who was very interested in me. I think that was the main thing, but so much more has been going on. Not sure what is in the air, but suddenly all these guys are passing by and I am definitely noticing.
First up, Dominic or D as I referred to him. So after he professed his love to me I was into it. I was so smitten and felt like “okay, this is it. this is my chance to have it all with a guy I have had a crush on since the day we met”…Well I was wrong. We hung out on a Saturday and spent pretty much the whole day together and I even tried to spend the night. That didn’t work out though because he lives in an RV which was roomy, but the sleeping arrangements were not so much. At around 2 AM we decided that I should just go home. As soon as I go home though I had this wave of something unsettling. I couldn’t place what it was, but something just felt off. As the week went by Dominic and I still talked daily, but I noticed I found myself getting annoyed more as the days passed. Of course I did communicate this with him and we did our best to talk it out and see what the real issue was, and though we did solve the issue at hand in that moment I still felt uneasy. Fast forward to two weeks later and it was my aunt’s birthday. To celebrate she had decided to go down to her brother’s house which we did of course. We had a little thing for her with a cake and what not, but really it was just an excuse for us (the cousins) to drink and act up. So my cousin Lito invited a few friends over and of course at my request he invited over his friend that I have had a crush on for forever. We made a few beer runs and of course by the time everyone showed up I was hella gone but of course still cute duh! Anyways that whole time my cousin’s friend I were flirting hardcore, I guess everyone saw it because twice my cousin told me his friend was digging me and the best part? As we were leaving I guess the friend gave me an intense flirty look, which of course my drunk ass didn’t notice, but my aunt did bring it to my attention and I was so bummed cause I didn’t even get to give him a hug goodbye. Fortunately, I did tell my cousin and he sent me his Intagram info and we added each other. Sadly though our interactions haven’t gone further than that. I am supposed to see him forthe 4th of July, but who knows, my aunt wants to goto Vegas to visit her sons aka my favorite cousins so I hope we can go out there instead. I haven’t seen them in a long time and I have been dying to go down there.
This topic isn’t going to be very long as I feel I don’t want to expose our business to much and jinx it. Currently for the last few months I have been getting close to my friend R. We have been friends since 2006, but as we grew up we were always hanging out with a different group of people. He was the most popular guy at our schools and even after we graduated people still talk about him and have always kept him relevant. The cool thing about out friendship though is no matter what, no matter how much time has passed, when we see each other everything is normal, almost like nothing has ever happened. So as this pandemic hit, I would see his posts and reply here and there and most of the time he’d just like my message or reply once or twice and then stop. I think it’s safe to say though that I wore him down, because we are like the best of friends now. He came down last Friday and that was the first time I had seen him since like 2012 and it was nice to see him. The funny part is we talk on the phone daily for hours and if we aren’t on the phone we are texting or talking on IG. The way our relationship is…it’s like we’re in a relationship already, but there’s nothing sexual about it. He’s just my best friend and I am his. So when he posted me on his page for the first time that Friday, here came his fan club flocking over to my page. It felt weird to have so much attention especially from people I didn’t even know. Then the next day he posted a picture of him and my daughter and my god the fan base grew more! I had to put my page on private cause I got tired of bitches creepin. Bottom line I knew him posting us was a big step in our friendship because he is a private person and has NEVER posted a female on his page. When I found out he had been a relationship almost as long as mine I was blown away because he never posted anything that even hinted to that and now I know why because his fan club will be on it in 2 seconds. In conclusion, I have been having a great time hanging out with him and just enjoying having some what of a social life these last few weeks.
The last topic I wanna touch on is my ex. He messaged me last week all nice and when I questioned why is he being so nice to me, his response was that he wanted to fix things with me and try to co parent better. Overall he has been nice, but in honesty I don’t really trust him. I fell like he has some sort of hidden motive, he has never been the person to do things because it was right. He does things expecting things in return. I have so many things to say on this topic but I will bite my tongue and leave it with we just have to wait and see what comes next.
Thank you all! Hope everyone is staying safe during this crazy time. I look forward to interacting with you guys and giving you more to read.
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